A mess

I think my life is still a mess...

still like a bundle of strings all tangled up...

i dunno when did it feel like that...

since the Annual General Meeting of PPB?

since my laptop broke down for the Nth time?

or since i went home for only one day and ended up rushing back to USM for another few weeks of busy duties?

i dunno...

i've already missed count of things...i've already lost my passion in life...

although sometimes i will be ok...but it doesn't turn well when i get up the other day...

mayb it's been really long since i actually said anything deep down inside to anyone else...

i mean, everyone has their problems...

when i think i can say about my problems...people around may have even worse problems than me...thus making me eat swallow back my words and then just try to comfort the people around me...

i am trying to stand up on my own..but it is tough...yes, it it...going through everyday without a purpose is eating me...

and i can also say, it is also because of the lack of learning Dhamma for the past month...Dhamma is like listening to an inspiring story about life and then u tend to wake up and see light through all the haze...but i dun have it...i had it during a camp but it goes away when all problems come back...

i hope my laziness goes away and then i can try to arrange my life back again...

i have study week next week..

and  6 exams in 3 weeks...

well, at least i get a few days back at home to rest and skipped 2 hour lectures...so sorry to that lecturer...

i have tons of photos waiting to be uploaded and posted...but i delay them all this time...and it's been a month since i delayed them..great...

life goes on...but i'm still happy though...

it's something i need to go through and then, when i get my purpose of life, everything will turn better...=)

now, i'm just trying to relax at home...and dun wanna think about anything...i have been stressing myself out alot...i just need a rest without thinking about my study, nothing about other people and nothing about my life.. nothing


*p/s: my dogs fought just now..for wat? coz the smaller dog wanted to have the bigger dog's leftover food..stupid thing...#_#